B.U.M.

Finally, back to work after three months of quitting my old job after two months b/c I didnt like it. There was also no transferable skills to my field if I decided to leave later on. So I quit, I just couldn’t take it no more, but Im back to work. This is my final chance at a good job. So I need to step up my game and work hard while still keeping healthy mentally and physically. Leave my crib around 7:45am and come back around 9 or 10pm so exhausted. Hopefully, I dont quit working out b/c Im getting real right…cant wait to get paid by some gear…I been slackin on my pimpin…..Its crazy how I can be with a bunch of convicts at Rikers one day and the next be with white collar professionals….Jail n street life is easy…..its hard to survive in the corporate world n become successful…I guess thats why these so called gangstas do what they do b/c they just 2 lazy to make something of themselves……….B.U.M.

I love to Dream,

B/C in my dreams we are Together,

Thats why I never want to Wake Up,

I force myself to continue to Sleep,

So we can always be Together——> BD

My Days are Unproductive,

Yet my life is so Destructive,

Why Continue this Misery,

Why continue to Breath, 

I want to be Successful,

But I cant find my Passion,

Maybe my passion is being Hopeless,

Where did I go Wrong,

Day in day out I keep losing Hope, 

Hope of a fruitful Life,

Do I have a broken soul or am I just plain Lazy,

My confidence is Shattered,

My focus is blurred with Failure,

I cant see myself as I once Was,

I hear life around me, but I cant escape this bottomless pit of Darkness,

I see a colorful world around me, but cant see Myself———»>By Black Dust